Two things on my mind and heart...

First, Emma...




FIY this will contain some TMI...sorry!




For the past year Emma and I have worked hard on potty training. It has not taken. Her will will not give in. Since the beginning she has decided that she will hold her poop in and not let it out. She does this when we are working on using the potty and when we are not. She has a fear of it. We have been to the Doctor and have medicine, but even with help she continues to be very stubborn. I could cry. It's one thing to have a child that will not use the potty and refuses to tell you when she has to go, it' another thing to have her hold in her poop and be fearful about it. I do not want to end up in the hospital. This is a mind problem. Everyone tells you not to discipline and be very understanding. But after this long, it can drive a person nuts. Give it up already, Emma. Sorry, I am tired of it. I see all the cute panties we could buy and it makes me sad. She is so smart! John tells me to pray and keep also praying with her, I am. But even that gets old. I know God will help us through, but I want results. And I feel for her when she is in pain. Please pray along with me. I just want her to wake up and go Mommy, I want to wear panties today. I have to go poop on the potty, Mommy. I want to hear these words more that I love ,Mommy, or you are beautiful, Mommy. I need help!









Second thing...




5 years ago when John told me I needed to go back to work, I almost lost it. It would be nice to get out of the house some and make extra money, but I could not think of a place that would hire a stay at home mom who could only work for a few hours a week. Well, God took me to Kohl's. It has worked out to be there and they have worked with me on my hours, what a blessing. Now, I want to be done. After working there for 5 years and having done retail off and on before that, I am coming on 7 years or so of it. I hate retail at Christmas. I could go on about all the things that I don't like, but those of you who have done it know. This past year has also been very different because I have had to learn how this store in San Antonio works. It is a busy store. It is in the heart of the city in between two others. This means we get returns from all the stores, we make calls to other stores to find different sizes and colors for customers. We are also right at the intersections of the two major highway systems. Very easy for people to get to. I just can't get over now people just seem to come out of the wood work, they just appear out of thin air. I. Am. Not. Kidding. And with issues of payroll and I am sure the economy, they only have one person in customer service all the time. Very hard to keep up.




This brings me to going back to school. I took one class in DSM and really liked college. But we moved and I had to put it off. I feel I am being called into the health care field. With good pay and I hope some flexible hours, I feel this would be a good fit for our family. Last week I had "phlebotomist" come to my mind. Getting blood samples from people in a doctors office or clinic sounds fun! I am praying about this. The course I am looking at would only involve going to class one day a week from 8 to 4:30pm for 16 weeks. Then a month of clinical working four days a week from 8 to 4:30pm. The month of clinical would be hard for our family but I think we could work it out.




Before I get to ahead of myself, I do want to list the blessing that Kohl's has been to me.




I have perfect hours.




I am making good money for retail.




The coworkers are nice.




My supervisor is wonderful.









So, right now I will be sticking with Kohl's and continue to pray for a good attitude when I am there. With the hope that in the new year, Lord willing, maybe I can go back to school.









Please pray with me about these two things. Emma really needs it! Thanks for letting me vent. I don't know what God is doing, but I am praying for answers soon. Maybe we will win the lottery! Ha!







Also, I just read an update on my good friend in Iowa who is 32, and married with two beautiful girls. She has cancer...and I complain about my job. Wow, get a grip, Jayne! I love you Becca, you are in my prayers!