My little hill billy...

Ok, I should be glad that Emma can't read or really understand what I am saying right now. All I can think about is that she will not have any front teeth until she is seven. This is just starting to hit me. It really is getting to me. I don't know if I am ready to have a daughter with no front teeth. It makes me sad. I feel guilty. Maybe if I has made lunch and left the laundry I could have prevented this. I am so emotional right now. She is fine and it could have been much worse! Praise the Lord it was not! And she is still the same little girl as she was before! She now just has a little lisp when she talks.

I am posting this pic because it shows what her mouth looks like. She really likes to show you her teeth. I am so glad she is young. She will never know the difference.

Emma is still learning to eat. Every morning it's like she has to retrain herself. I think she forgets. It is sad to see her forget and then look at you and say "hurt". Oh my heart. Don't think I can handle much more. Can't wait for the healing to begin. Emma's mouth and my emotions!

Emma has an accident...

Where do I start? I had no idea I would spend 4 hours of my day in a dentist and oral surgeon office.

About 11:30am I hear this heart breaking scream. Emma is hurt! I am upstairs doing laundry. I yell at the boys asking what has happened. They all have been fighting this morning, so I was a little tired of being a ref. As I start to head down stairs, Emma is on her way up and when I see her, oh man, my heart drops. She is covered in blood! I don't know what to do. I just look at her. Try and see her mouth. Then I see her front right tooth sticking straight out. I knew we needed a dentist. Then I freak. WE DON'T HAVE A DENTIST YET!!! I put Emma in the tub, now still freaking about how much more blood I am seeing. Call John, he is in the Children's Ministry office. God is good. They get him the number of a dentist. He calls, they tell us to come right over. My GPS does not get me all the way there. Ugh. Technology!!! There are THREE dentist offices on this intersection and they all have some sort of Stone Oak in their names. UGH, again!!! I am on the phone now with John yelling for him to tell me where this place is! He is ALREADY there!!! Then he sees me and guides me in. Perfect timing. They are on lunch, which means, no patients are there!!! Other kids do not have to see a little girl with blood all over her come into see the dentist. The boys light up, this is a pediatric office, so movies and video games are everywhere. They start to play and we get to take care of Emma. Next, X-ray. Daddy gets to hold Emma and she does great! We get her back to her room and they put Dora on! A TV is in the ceiling. Also, fish are all over the walls as well as sand!!! The dentist informs us that the three teeth have to come out. This still does not hit me. They get us an appointment with an oral surgeon. They can't put her under. We don't want her to remember a thing! Back in the van we now drive to the surgeon to get the pulling done. While we are waiting for the doctor, Emma starts to perk up. She is talking and wants to check out all the equipment. I am so thankful for this. Right before the surgery, I sign the consent form. The nurse explains to me all they are going to do. I realize now her teeth are coming out. She will now not have these three front teeth until the premaments grow in. Oh man, this is so weird. What is she going to look like? Is her speech going to change? Will she still be cute, of course, nothing could change that! Now it's time for Emma to drink her calming drug. They have told me it was juice. I say ok. Right as I am going to give her the cup they tell me, oh yes, this stuff does not taste good. Great. I know she is going to spit it out. She drinks it right down! I guess she was hungry! And the prayers were working! Praise the Lord.

This whole time the boys are watching NIK in the lobby. Wow, these Docs sure know how to entertain! And in between, John takes them to eat at Wendy's. This brings me to thoughts of John.

He met me at the dentist,

He helped Emma while I did paper work.

He took the boys to lunch.

He was there for Emma to see when she woke up after surgery.

He went to HEB to get jello for Emma on the way home.

He did not to back to work.

He stayed with us the whole time.

I am SO THANKFUL him!

I LOVE him!

Now back to the story...

This all started with Ean spinning Emma on the office chair. I did not see this happen, so we have the story from a six year old boy. Ean, "I was spinning Emma on the chair, she fell and hit the chair." He felt really bad and when he came up the stairs after Emma he was saying "I will never do that again!" He was very concerned and did not like seeing her blood.

Things I am thankful for...

Emma was a perfect patient.

Only baby teeth.

The boys were perfect.

The dentist did not have patients!

John was with the perfect people at the perfect time!

Friends were willing to take the boys if we needed it!

When Emma came to, John said she was shaking, but he took her and we were ready to go! She was starving! She saw the Wendy's bag in the van and started to cry, she wanted french fries. It's now 3:30pm. The last time she ate was 8am. Jello and juice go down well at home! Very thankful again! By 6pm we are up playing with dolls and light sabers. Then we head off to WalMart for a new toy!

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers for Emma today! We felt them and know God was with us!

Now I am off to bed for a good cry, yep, my daughter will not have three front teeth until she is 7 yreas old or so. Wow! Ok, I need to stop.

Have posted some photos to FB.

Evan is 5...

Got this idea about posting a letter to your child on their birthday from another bogging friend!

Evan,

You will always be my surprise boy! When I found out I was pregnant with you I said, WOW, this is a surprise, Ean is only 10 months old! But God had a plan, and how perfect it turned out! On the day you were born I did not even know I had been in labor for several hours before hand. Ean and I took a walk that morning, I had to stop twice for contractions, but they did not feel to bad, so I went on with my day. Daddy, Ean and I went to lunch at Village Inn in Urb. We decided that we would call you Evan Christopher if you were a boy. John, Jayne, Ean and Evan all mean gift from God. Christopher is you Dad's middle name. We liked the way it sounded with Ean. With that done, we went back home, Dad and Ean took naps and I went to get a pedicure. While I was getting my toes done I again had two strong contractions. Still did not think anything of it. I still had 7 days until my due date. I went home and was really tired, so I layed down on my left side to take a nap. Half hour later, I had a VERY painful contraction. Two more came. I called G Connie and told her that she may need to come watch Ean. Called the Doctor and they said, do you want to come to the office and be checked, I said no, I will go to the hospital. Called G Connie back and had her start to drive over. Got your Dad up, and by this time my contractions were about 7 to 8 min apart. I wanted to get to the hospital so I could get drugs. G Connie came, and we went to the hospital! I kept asking for drugs and the hospital staff kept telling me that they were coming, the Doctor need to see me first. I never got my drugs. We got to the hospital at about 4 pm and you were born at 4:55pm. So yet again another surprise! Such a quick labor and delivery. Now that I look back, it was very intense, but I am so glad I did not have to wait any longer to see you! One difference of your birth as apposed to Ean's was when I met Ean I had never been a mother and did not know what that love was like. When Ean was 24 hours old I was holding him and then knew that I loved him with all my heart. With you, the moment they put you in my arms for the first time I loved you right away. I could not believe that. You were my son from the moment we met!

For the past 5 years these are some more special things I have come to love about you.

You favor the Leinen's in looks.

You have you Dad's quiet spirit and I think, his feet!

You also have the wonderful servant quality. When I ask for help cleaning up, you stop what you and doing and help! This also remind me for your Dad!

When you ask Emma for hugs, it warms my heart, I love how you love her. You also use a sweet soothing voice with her. I pray you always help protect her!

Although you and Ean have your moments with each other, you are really the best of friends! The way you both love the Wii, Mario and Luigi, and any video games is a bond you will have for you whole lives.

It's fun for me to be your teacher this year. We are working on your letters and you are getting better and better.

You are still a thumb sucker and burp rag lover. As much as I want to help you kick these habits, apart of me wants to keep these cute young this forever!

I love you so much! You will always be my forever special surprise boy!

Love,

Mama (that's what you call me now!)

First holiday away...

Easter 2010, our very first holiday as a family alone together. This shot was taken outside Wayside Chapel after the service this morning.

I must say I did not know how this day was going to go. I am so used to having Grandma's cooking dinner and setting up Easter egg hunts for my kids. This time it was all up to me! The day did not start off to well. I worked Saturday to try and help Sunday morning, but I got behind. I got frustrated and having a two year old never helps a frustrated mom. So, I ended up yelling at the kids to hurry up and got mad at Emma for getting my lip stick, so glad she did not make a mess! What a way to get your mind ready for Easter morning service. Ugh! I had to ask for forgiveness later. Very thankful for forgiving children.

Cooking takes some work! I made Company French Toast for brunch at Sunday School. For our lunch I made ham and potatoes in the crock pot, jello jigglers, rolls, banana bread, and deviled eggs. Dinner could have been a little better. I am trying. Maybe I tend to like food made by others better than my own. Oh well!

We did the egg hunt in our back yard. Emma was so excited! She just wanted to see what was in each egg as she picked them up. The boys ran around the yard very quick!
This did not take long! They wanted to eat the candy!!!

I must say that this day really went well! We did skype with both sides of the family, it was nice to see them! It was different, but fun! Seeing the kids faces when they opened their Easter baskets and as they gathered eggs was priceless. I think I could get used to this! It is nice to spend special time with the four people God has given me to live with, make memories with and love! The Lord has blessed me with eternal life and a great family to spend this time on earth with! I love them!